thousandblades

sex? yes indeed

2005-12-12T04:37:09Z

Uh-oh, here comes trouble

dark angel? yeah right, that's goth bullshit

talkin' to me?

caught off guard, clearly

sideways 1.0

v2.0

devious little bastard

don't drink and fly or this happens

twins!

quasibendo

more quasibendo

after this was taken I shoved my fingers in my mouth because I was thinking of Audra too much and didn't want to grab my crotch

like home alone but not

you're ugly and it scares me

cousin it

I swear I didn't drink that night

listening to The Vanishing

oops?

falling through stairs is fun

I didn't try and do a model thing here, it just kinda happened

mirrorshot!

time to sing!

here comes the metal personality...

headbang on the way to the mic...

there 'tis! time to sing for real now

light this city makes me go metal

grar

whoa shit

gurgleroar

shit yes he's a fox

slave screams, he thinks he knows what he wants

mica made me pose for this, seriously

Ben can dance if he wants to

scream for me and I'll die for you

hair in face=fun

fin.

CHRISTMAS WISHLIST--or buy me shit

2005-12-08T05:25:33Z

CDs:
Aslan Faction- Widow Chamber
Cannibal Corpse- Gore Obsessed
Children of Bodom- Hatebreeder
The Cure- Pornography (special edition)
Deicide- Deicide
Dissection- Storm of Lightsbane
Edge of Sanity- Evolution
Emperor- Anthems to the Welkin at Dusk
Entombed- Wolverine Blues
Faith No More- King for a Day, Fool for a Lifetime
God Forbid- IV: The Constitution of Treason
Helmet- Unsung: The Best of Helmet
The Haunted- One Kill Wonder
Living Sacrifice- The Hammering Process
Mortiis- The Smell of Rain
My Dying Bride- Like Gods of the Sun
Obituary- The end Complete
Psyclon Nine- INRI

MONEY MONEY MONEY (FOR RENT OF COURSE)

that's all, more to be added later.

George Foreman is a mischievous little monkey

2005-11-29T08:42:20Z

Holy shit. I just realized how brilliant George Foreman's commercial is.

George Foreman came on the TV screen he's like "good day consumers, this is my grillthing it does THIS1" and then George Foreman2 pops up like a naughty little child scolding him "no you silly goose, it does THIS2" and then so on until there's like eleventy-three George Foreman's all bickering like the silly little munchkins they are and then daddy George Foreman comes in reassuring his little clones "You're ALL right! It does THIS1-THISELEVENTY-THREE so it's all good mein kinder and you the consumer should buy a bajillion of them because it makes waffles and steaks"

Then they have an orgy because they all are in love with themselves.

My new mix CD is sexier than yours (minus the kittie...that's not sexy)

2005-11-28T09:40:16Z

All songs taken from Mica's computer.

1. Aslan Faction- Confusion Reigns
2. David Bowie- Starman (I remember listening to this as a child)
3. Bella Morte- Funeral Night
4. Joy Division- Love Will Tear Us Apart
5. Dead Or Alive- You Spin Me Right Round
6. Mortiis- Smell the Witch
7. London After Midnight- The Bondage Song
8. Mindless Self Indulgence- Hail Satain
9. Rasputina- Tourniquet (Manson cover)
10. Air- Playground Love
11. The Birthday Massacre- The Neverending Story (Limahl cover)
12. Marilyn Manson/Korn- Sleepy Hollow
13. Depeche Mode- Enjoy the Silence
14. Light This City- Obituary
15. My Ruin- Miss Ann Thrope
16. The Misfits- Dig Up Her Bones
17. Kidneythieves- Spank (KMFDM Remix)
18. Kittie- Do you think I'm a whore
19. Switchblade Symphony- Naked Birthday
20. Bauhaus- She's in Parties

You scream, I scream, everybody scream for morphine

2005-11-27T06:54:36Z

Yeah, I know I know. I don't do drugs or any of that shit but I'd love to just kinda drift into some sort of medicated, blissful, trance. I'm just bored and down at the same time. This is all so feckin' lame. I feel like I'm upsetting everybody. Even when it's just little quirks or whatever, or a mere "could you please stop that?" I take it so much higher in my mind. I mean, at least I'm conscious of this, but seriously now, it's still so frustrating...I can't get a hold of myself. I feel so fucking pathetic.

I think I should move out of Mica's so that I don't push her away. I would miss her so much if I ever upset her. She takes good care of me, she's a good friend. So are her parents and so are the other friends of hers, like Natalie and that Doran guy that I still want to meet. I just need to not be such a burden. That's all Bendecko ever fucking is though...everybody helps him and he doesn't help himself.

I am the adversary and will remain the adversary

2005-11-27T01:09:31Z

Today I feel pretty. Last night some girl at swing dancing complimented me on my legs because I had my skirt/fishnets on and my legs were showing. She said she was jealous. I had no idea my legs were so special but whatever, it's all good. I should start shaving them again so that I can go without fishnets and just have my sexy bare legs for the world to see. Mwahaha, I'd be getting hit on left and right, but that's okay, because Audra knows I'm safe.